bad diary days

i'm trying to think of good things to keep my mind off of my great grandfather's death. the last time i saw a lot of that part of my family was when my great grandmother pat passed away. although i'd like to go to the funeral, i hate the idea that it's funerals that bring us together. my mom said my papa was supposed to call me when he came to town to take care of some stuff, but i never heard from him. it would have been nice. i really miss my papa and i'd like him to meet paul. i've come to terms with not being able to invite my family to the wedding and that's fine, it doesn't bother me anymore, or at least not enough to make an issue of it. but i would like my papa to meet the man i'm going to marry. i know that there's plenty of time for all of that, some things are just important, you know?